I Knew I Love You - Savage Garden
慈恩:
记得我曾承诺过妳说我会缝一只小熊送你吗? 如今,我做到了!这是我第一次亲手制做的熊仔,希望你会喜欢,生日快乐!
这是我最后一次写信给你.
这两年来,我们从陌生变得亲密,但也渐渐地疏远. 说真的,我真的很高兴能够认识你. 是妳,开拓了我的视野,教会了我如何去爱,付出,关怀. 在我最失落的时候,妳扶了我一把,让我重新的站起来. 除了感谢,我还是要谢谢妳,陪我一起度过的日子.
妳对我的关怀,爱心,我将铭记在心,毕竟,妳是第一位对我这么好的女生. 我,不后悔那短暂我们在一起的时光,那...是我至今最快乐的日子... 爱人与被爱,温暖与安心,是谁也不能磨灭的记忆.
可能对妳而言,那是一时冲动,还是其他,我不清楚. 我多么希望我们能在一起,是情侣,度过每一天,但这到头来只是我一厢情愿的想法.时间和一切证明了我并不是你所找寻的另一半,我不是你要的那个人. 是我的任性和固执,让妳不开心和为难妳. 我在此说声对不起. 我亲手破坏了我们之间的友情,因为我天真的以为总有一天我会和妳在一起,得到妳的心...
然而时间消逝,妳换了几个男朋友,伤透了心,又重新爱上一个人. 而我,永远只是个旁观者,鼓励着,安慰着妳. 而妳并不考虑我, 只把我当好朋友... 我,已不知何时深深爱上妳,也不愿把自己抽出来,对妳的思念和渴望也一天天加深. 到后来,我才知道我是真心地爱上妳,不顾一切的付出,只为了希望得到妳的心. 为了妳,我什么都能做到.
这一切,如今却是徒然,我明暸这些只是我一厢情愿的想法,而我认为是时候停了. 我依然深爱着妳,但如今我只能在记忆中找寻妳的美好,如此可笑的我啊! 是时候放下了我对妳的依恋,让我从新开始. 恩,你给了我大学时代最美好的回忆,我深深地感谢妳!
从今以后,我不会再追求妳,更不会对你有任何的奢望. 我既然能痴痴地迷恋妳,我就能够狠狠地放下对妳的眷恋,我相信我能做得到.
在此,我希望妳在未来的日子里过得很好,变得更快乐. 希望妳常微笑,因为妳的笑容真的很美,可爱,纯真.
P.S 小熊JC代表了我过去一心一意爱你的心,如今我把我的心送给你...
珍重,
政杰
二零零九年一月五日
Above photos are copy-righted to me, Mr. Teoh Jeng Chieh, and 100% original post from JC. For those my friends dunno read chinese words, kindly personal message me for the translation.
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Here is the translation to english for this post:
Ci En,
Remember that i once promised you that i'll make a teddy bear for you? Now, i done it! This is the 1st time i hand-make teddy bear, hope you like it, happy birthday!
This is the last letter i write for you.
These 2 years, we from strangers to become close friends, and slowly apart. I'm glad that i get to know you. Is you, who open up my vision, teach me how to love, giving and caring. When i was in most upset period, you lifted me up. Thank you, for the days we spent together.
The care and love that you gave me, i'll remember it, after all, you are the 1st girl who treated me so good. I, do not regret that the period that we had been together, that... is the period of most joyful of my life so far... Loving a person and get loved back, warmed heart and peaceful, are the memories of mine that can't be erased.
Maybe for you, that was the moment of "crush" or other reason, i dunno it. But i eagerly hope that we can be together, as couple, spend time togther. After all, it was just my own fantasy. Time and everything proved that i'm not the one you looking for. My stuborn had made you unhappy, troubled you. Very sorry, i destroyed our friendship, because i foolishly think that someday in the future, we will be together, and i get your heart...
As time goes by, you changed some boyfriends, being hurt and felt in love with another person again. And me, i forever only can be outsider, encouraged you and taking care of you. You never consider my existance to be your boyfriend, and stated that we are just close friends... I, dunno when i felt in love with you. But i don't wish to pull myself out from pursuit you, and the hunger that needed you and missing you growing stronger each day. In the end, i realised that i am really love you, i can do everything for you, just to hope to get your heart.
Now, everything seems worthless, i know that all these just my selfish thinking that can get your heart, and i think that it is time to stop. I still love you, but i can only missing you in my memories. So foolish me! It is time to give up the love on you, let myself start anew. En, you had gave me a meaningful uni life, i sincerely thank you!
From now on, i will not go after you, and will not hope anything from you anymore. Since i can so deeply, madly, truly love you, I sure can force myself from not loving you. I believe i can.
Here, i wish that in the future you live good, become more happy. Hope you smile a lot, because your smile really beautiful and cute.
P.S. Teddy Bear JC represent the past of me that love you like no one else, now i gave my heart to you...
Take care.
JC
5 Jan 2009
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