Where is the Love?

Long time no post wall of text, today i gonna post 1, right now.

CAUTION: THIS POST CONTAIN FOUL LANGUAGE AS IT POSTED BY THE WRITER IN RAGE MOOD, ANY UNDESIRED EFFECT AFTER READING THIS IS NOT RESPONSIBLE TO THE WRITER.


Ask my friend John stated in his H1N1 virus post, our world become so terror and danger everywhere. Roof problem of our country fallen to the virus country list is due to our department-in-charge is mainly.... SLEEPING! They talk cock all the time, want do this and want do that, in the end, nothing really done and they still proud of that. We already seen this over and over again, their 'action' taken just aim to solve matters on their face, and not see the big picture and solve the main problem. Happy swine flu prevention!


I just realized that why i so negatively thinking as people who know me well sure will critic about this. This is mainly because i live in so stressful and negative thinking family. Everyone knows current situation of economy downfall is not gonna recover so soon, and it will be remain worst condition state for some time. Guess what my parent try hard to brainwashing me to achieve what they like? Go get a job in Singapore by any means! People use arse think can know what Singapore job retrenchment is higher than Malaysia, either pay cut or reduce working days. Both way also reduce your sum of paycheck larrrrr! I know i earn not much and not able to give big allowance to mum and dad, sorry leh papa mama, i also need to earn for my own living what, want me everyday eat maggi as lunch and drink tap water ah? F**king fact is that a person who fresh graduate from University, is bound to lot of loans and need to pay back what he/she borrowed. I just bought a car and that car loan and petrol fee is killing me and yet PTPTN is coming to haunt me all the time. I had no much left for my own expenses after i give allowance to mum. I found out i can spent way lesser than my study life. Where to get more money to feed the black hole like hunger of parents? Selling my butt or robe bank? hmmmmmm....

Worst thing happens is that i had received 3 traffic fines within a week and need to settle the bill by end of this month before they warned "things will turn ugly if you didn't pay before the deadline". That kills my this month and following month own saving. Driving in a very slow lane, which constantly got the mud trucks and lorry moving in turtle speed of 30kmph is way to slow in highway-like road, therefore i speed sometime to overtake those turtles to reach my destination. And i so lucky that i got those "summons" unnoticed until now. I know i am wrong in the first hand as i speeding above the speed limit, but i only exceed slightly of it and get this kind of charge, this is not cheap fee,man! It is free feeding to government for those fat blardy bastards who not get their job done and busy find girls to rape with, using their 'power'. Speak of the fine, after receive the 'gifts', on the same week, i had discovered that road side now increase significant amount of speed limit signs to "remind" you about the limit. Kudos to them as after government issue the gifts to you and now kindly inform you to behave nicely. The police job suppose is to catch criminals and bring save to our country, yet our honorable policemen choose to catch people who speed up and let those criminals get loose. Holy Shit! Money money, is all about the money~

Seems so negatively happening around me, i would like add one more: As now i have a job, have income and live a boring working life, my mum pressure me to get a girlfriend that she eyed on. Problem is i didn't like that girl at all, how can i go get that girl who i don't have feel in the 1st place? It just don't get it click and like the old time drama or history that marry the person you don't like and still need to suffer the rest of your life. I get this feeling every time as my mum mentioned about this matter: get that girl that she like, go approach! This unmeasurable pressure trouble me until now and still carry on, as long as i get a girlfriend. I living is very unhappy life. Lot of time i wish i just wanna escape from my family and away far from them... People do say that cancer zodiac people suppose to love the family, but i can put new definition of that, which is: to make the cancer baby not loving the family, is the family itself.

As i got rejected recently, feel so fed up on the girls. Guess that i need to put down efforts to get the girl i like and focus on my career...

Stress stress stress, how to overcome it? I currently very unhappy and not feeling good at all, health problem will arise soon. Even iron man like me (who rarely fall sick) will go down by the stress piled up.


For the friends who concern about me: i just release it on this blog and try hard to fix my own problem.

For those who aim for bring me down: this post should be your laughter, hope it enlighten your day.

And for the person who makes me so upset lately: shut the fuck up you bitch! i don't need you anymore as long as i don't want. Why i need to lower down myself to become your slave? Did you even treat me good? Think about it!



LEAVE ME ALONE, i need personal space and time to think what i need and what i want to do next.


Maybe i should start listening Black Eyed Peas's song "where is the love?"