Depressed

Today is major depressed day.

Early morning before work came flashing image about someone. Try to not thinking about it, and focus on work.

Lunch time, went try City Square's Kim Gary and test the dish weather nice or not... Alone eating, surrounded by couples. Depression turns worst and flashing back those memories that we had been spent together for the past (just we two, chatting so happily at the restaurant, dating, etc...)

Then i realised, the dish not bad at all, unlike my friend describe as no good and rated low for the restaurant. It depends on each one's taste, kind of subjective when comes to rate soemthing.

Back to work, try to ease my depressed mind. Radio playing those songs that we sang before during sing k time, our special songs... And then those song which trigger the sad memories of mine, i keep thinking: why we can't be together, why?

This depression syndrome, for me, seems will haunt me for long. My solution: dig a hole in mind, keep it all inside, and try hard not to trigger it. The feeling is very painful when missing someone so badly, it feels like heart slowly get light stab constantly, and totally not feeling good. I think i really love her very much... For now only can bless her doing well in everything, and assist her if she needs my help. That's the only thing i can do for her. My faint hope is somewhere in the future, hoping have the chance we can be togther, someday...

Foolish me,

ChestMeat.